why I have the passion to help others

I spent my life living in my head, and I didn’t even know it. I had no idea what was wrong with me. I lived this way for a very long time. I did the best I could; I tried really hard, but I was not okay. No matter what I thought or did it didn't work for me. I was looking for something to make me better. I wanted what I didn’t have. I wanted to live like I saw other people living. I thought everyone else was doing good except for me, everyone else was happy and I wanted to be anyone else but me. I didn’t know how to enjoy what I had or where I was.